The Dreaded Call

It just came in.... that dreaded call that I myself could not even make.  I had to send a message for the call to The call that would determine what day I would return to work this week.  Return to the place I last saw and held my baby girls.  The call that I have been dreading for weeks now.  Lord please hold me....I don't know if I can do this.

"If only my anguish could be weighed and all of my misery be put on the scales!  It would surely outweigh the sands of the seas."  Job 6:2-3