I also have been thinking about the things that God has so blessed my heart with over the past week. Especially in the world of work and babies. We (my patient, myself, and I am sure many of my coworkers) have been eagerly awaiting the arrival of her twins for the past several weeks. As the time drew closer I was really anxious and even worried how I would feel as her due date was just four days prior to mine. It really is hard to believe that right now I could be, maybe even should be holding my girls as I would be 34 weeks and three days. At the very least just a few more weeks. However I was still very excited for her and her family and had a chance to really get to know her as I cared for her and those precious boys in her tummy over the last weeks. Well finally they arrived. Last week! How precious they are! So small and fragile, yet so strong. Oh how that mother blessed me when she said go down and hold my babies. I was hesitant at first, but mustered up just enough strength. Actually I think God mustered it up. So down I went and held one of those precious boys and fed him his 2oclock feeding. That very action blessed me in some unexplainable way. The chance to hold and love someone else's baby that we had been so eagerly awaiting. And then I thought about my neighbor and her big boy that will be a year old in May. How God just blesses my heart each time I see him and he gets so excited to see me. Even reaching for me now. I think he just knows he gets treats at Auntie Coker's house, but whatever the reason, it's ok with me. I am so thankful that my heart has not become hardened to those that have or are what I so greatly miss.
Finally this morning I am thankful for a dream. I am not one to dream often except for my bought of nightmares recently, and like I said before I certainly was not one to remember what I had dream. But last night was different. So real and so perfect in every detail. Just like Jacob's dream from the Bible only a different subject matter. Never have I ever had such a detailed dream. I even woke up during the middle of it to go to the bathroom and when I layed back down and fell asleep it continued like it had never been interrupted. I am not sure what it all means but never the less, I am sure it had its purpose.
"When Jacob awoke from his sleep, he thought, "Surely the Lord is in this place,
and I was not aware of it." He was afraid and said, "How awesome is this place!
This is none other than the house of God; this is the gate of Heaven."